I’ve been creating a horror storyline, and I just have so many useless and practically questions but I need them answered or else I will completely loose it!
Hi guys!
I have been making a horror story with the usual: gore, psychological horror, emotion, traumatizing twists and whatnot…
I am a fairly young writer, but even as a little toddler in the single digits I would make these short horror stories. But this isn’t the point.
I also like a bit of romance I guess, It makes me kinda happy when it doesn’t strip away the horror aspects. Im not really talking about straight romance but more so gay romance… shouldn’t be a problem either way, right?
Well I feel like it is becoming a problem! Because I already have two gay man x man couples that I feel like fit in the story… and I have a straight ship that just kind of in there as the “aw cute” ship. BUT NOW I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO SHIP TWO GIRLS TOGETHER TO BALANCE OUT THE TWO GAY COUPLES… RIGHT? But even worse I want to pair one of my flamboyant male characters with another male character… so to balance THAT out i’d have to make ANOTHER female x female duo…
So if I actually did that… it would be SEVEN relationships in one story! and almost ALL of them wouldn’t even be meaningful to the story at all! They would just be there to balance it out, which is stupid and useless to the horror aspect I think but I cant help but feel like I need (not want) those extra relationships in my story!? and MORE!?
I feel like this whole relationship mindset is drifting my brain away from the actual STORY GENRE: Horror! I don‘t want a romance story! I don’t even plan on making one of my male x male couples (yes this will be canon to my story) healthy at first because I don’t want “normal” relationships in my story! That gets boring! And the male x male duo im talking about actually have a VERY IMPORTANT Part in progressing this story!
Another thing: I SUCK AT MAKING FEMALE CHARACTERS! I can make any type of male character ever!: feminine, fucked in the head, masculine, shy. I can make ALL of those! but when it comes to females? IM STUPID! Completely brain dead!
I feel as though it’s probably because I make male characters to cope with myself. And whenever I think: “Oh just make one of your male character ideas into a woman!” I feel weird about it because some fucked up part of me thinks it doesn’t feel the same! I’m not misogynistic I swear to god, I love woman! It’s just easier for me to write and create male characters and I wish it would be easier to create female characters too without thinking about this stupid romance problem or this stupid “ugh idk i feel like this idea wouldn’t be the same if this character was changed into a female” mindset!
So please, I am honestly begging for advice! I like my two male x male duos and my one straight duo. I feel like if i did make one female x female ship that would be fine (as long as shipping doesn‘t go over five ships AND it doesn’t mess up the horror aspects I think thats fine) but the problem is i only have THREE female characters out of, what, the FIFTEEN characters that I've created!? (I know i told you its a problem)
Should I give that one flamboyant guy i was talking about earlier a male partner? Or a female partner? Or hell even a partner with a different gender? Or no partner!? (this is only a problem because the character that my flamboyant character is inspired by has a partner and its messing with me head!)
Should I just ditch the whole ”shipping” mindset and just focus on improving the story building and the horror aspects and let the shipping problem and the lack of female characters problem keep nagging at me??
Am I crazy for thinking these are even problems!?
Sorry for the rambling, this has been a problem ever since this month and last month!