u/AdThat75

I’m a 20 year old female, about to be 21 and I’m about to enter my last semester of my nursing degree and have come to the realisation that I never want to be a nurse. I’ve never enjoyed nursing but I’ve always had this ‘stick it out‘ kind of mentality, I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life after finishing high school and I just decided on doing nursing in uni because there were so many incentives to doing it at the time such as scholarships. I’ve just come off a 4 week placement that I actually hated so much and cried every single day thinking there is no way this is going to be my life. I’ve been so caught up in studying nursing for the past 2 and a half years that I haven’t had a moment to step back and think is this even what I want to do as a career. I’ve also always been disengaged in my classes and placements and I think it’s because I have always been suppressing the fact that I just can’t imagine myself being a nurse, I’ve never wanted to be a nurse but it feels stupid to drop out now as I literally have a few months left of the degree but I don’t see myself ever working as a nurse. I also literally fainted on the first day of my second placement and idk how I didn’t take that as a sign that I should not peruse this career. it’s also not like it’s something that I can just forget about and then go back to in a few years as ill need to work as a nurse to be able to keep my registration. im also meant to be applying for grad years now but I have been in constant states of panic because I genuinely do not want to do it. I always imagined a glamorous life for myself, or at least not a life where I clean up peoples shit and piss for a living. now I am also faced with that fact that I am almost 21 and have no clue what I want to do with my life, I’ll also add that I have completed half a bachelors in psychology which I might go back and finish next year but then again what can a psych degree even get you.

during the past month I’ve been on placement I have not had time to do ANYTHING due to the hours I’ve been working, my body is in so much pain and in the past 3 days since finishing my placement I’ve barely been able to get out of bed. Ive developed resentment towards the healthcare industry and I never want to work in healthcare. in all honestly I just want to get rich, I don’t have a passion for anything but now I feel so behind in life, idk how it’s gotten to this point as I always imagined I would have my life set up by this point or at least some idea of what I want to do but now I just feel so lost.