I am wasting my parents money on a degree that I know is useless
Hello, I do not know if people can relate to this problem...The guilt has just been eating me alive.
For background, I am an international student whose degree is paid completely by my average income parents. Raised in a high achieving environment where I had to take and excel in the most difficult subjects during highschool. When it came to choosing my subject for Uni I decided to go for an easier subject. I am studying a subject that most people would say is very unconventional or atleast in my culture-lazy. I had to fight alot with my parents, my community and my relatives to study the subject I chose to study and they all still believe that I am studying a degree that has no future because AI will take over and basically anyone can learn my subject by signing up for a course in Udemy. When I was 18 of course my option felt like the best choice and I was not thinking of the sacrifices my parents would have to make. My parents are both sad of my choice of subject but supportive enough to let me pursue my dream.. They are continuing to pay for my tuition and all I have to do is budget my living cost.
After an entire semester abroad, I am scared to admit they were right and I think I am wasting 50,000 dollars per year of my parents money on a subject that is not academically challenging me at all. I cannot change my subject because I will risk losing my visa and I do like the university I go to. I cannot confess this to my parents so I am writing it here. I honestly believe its best I swallow my ego and just finish 3 more years of this degree that I fought so hard to study and now think is boring.
This feeling of guilt has intensified 2 days ago when I found out that my parents have stopped eating meat to save up some more money for my tuition next semester. They are thinking of selling our 4 bedroom house to move to a smaller unit because they believe it would be cost efficient and would save up more money to give to me for my living expense so that I could eat well. It makes me so sad. That they are thinking what I am eating over what they are eating. I do not want my parents to make any more sacrifices, I do not want to be a university drop out, I do not know what to do. If I change my subject now, I would have to reapply for a visa and I might not get it again- the chances are very high. I am sorry to my parents, I am sorry I failed to think about how to give back to you. I really hope your sacrifices are worth being wasted on me. I am sorry.