i'm 13 and i have lost all my emotions
i've lost all my emotions it feels so stupid. i'm only 13 years old and i've had a rough childhood i watched people do drugs. people get into fights people yell and ive grown to realize how fucked up my childhood was.
so somehow i started changing not crying, just laughing and smiling and its all fake the only real times when i laugh is when i'm trying to cry i cant cry. no matter what i feel numb i feel like i don't care about anything i don't even know why im writing this and also i just listen to music to feel sad but it doesnt work. it got to the point where i tried to take my own life and then i cried i cried for once. but ever since then it got worse ive been more emotionless and even the crying after that i was fucking laughing.
i don't know whats wrong with me. and a little bit of context i only live with my mum and its changed me. im seeing my dad in a few weeks and im going to tell him about it but i don't know.
i don't get it im only 13 and i cant shed a tear isnt that shocking. i like sad movies like fightclub, joker, taxi driver etc