Am I really aroace?
I (F19) have never been in a relationship, or been attracted to anyone seriously, ever. I'm surrounded by my friends who constantly talk about relationships, or attraction to people, and I always give very objective views of the people they claim are attractive, and my friends claim I always ruin the point of being attracted to the person in the first place by being too analytical. People usually talk about having crushes and all and I'm here like, that's not that common, is it?
I can only think of one person when i think of me ever having a crush, and it was a classmate from my middle school who used to encourage the plays and drama productions I acted in and set up, despite never talking to me properly.
The thing is, my circle is a mix of straight cishet people, and also queer people. And my personality is as such that I enjoy intellectual connection and i suppose competence over like, in depth relationships with people. My circle assumed it was because of my personality that I never really found anyone to my standards, and I kind of went along with that because I thought the same, I guess. And the fact that I was not in a relationship didnt really bother people much, because I always claimed i wanted to focus on my studies and be independent before getting into anything serious. But I just want to understand, I suppose.