u/Brok3nLlama

Anyone else feel like this?

There’s so many things I’d want to be doing, even just regular stuff like cleaning or taking a shower. But I just can’t, my body won’t let me just do things.. am beyond frustrated and sad and angry. I feel like this has taken everything away from me. I have had to stop doing hobbies that I enjoy and I can’t be the kind of parent or partner I’d want to be… am just forced to be in this weird bubble of my own body, that feels like a prison and I can’t get out. Even writing this hurts. So soon I won’t even be able to connect with people online or play games on my phone. Can’t hold a book properly to read or a pen in my hand to do puzzles/sudokus or a paintbrush to do my art.

Still waiting for a doctor’s appointment and I fear they can’t even help me once I do get an appointment. The frustration is insane. How do you handle losing yourself to your illness?

Went to our urgent care yesterday due to my shoulder joint dislocating on/off style for a couple of weeks. It was in yesterday but got a sling for my arm and pain meds: panacod. Now been taking them with my other meds and been actually able to do stuff around the house. Am still sore all over but can stand a little longer and pain mainly in muscles, not in joints/ligaments as it usually is.

Do you use panacod for your pain management? Long term or just occasionally. Does it help or make things worse on the long run?

Am still waiting for a doctor’s appointment for my other pains. Was glad the doctor I saw yesterday made a note of me needing to get checked out for the root cause of my issues. Hoping to hear from them next week :/

Had to stop Etoricoxib due to side effects, gabapentin takes the edge off but I can’t really walk or move at all without excruciating pain. Been trying to get a doctor’s appointment for a while now but haven’t heard anything back yet and am frustrated.

Had a better time for a while but the past couple of weeks have been slowly getting worse… can’t sleep well, can barely go to work and can’t get anything done at home. Been also getting period cramps although I have IUD and don’t have periods at all. Just feels like my body is punishing me for just existing.

Any words of encouragement or advice would be appreciated.