My doctors think I'm bipolar 2 because mainly of how I reacted to the medicine, at least that the vibe I got. I didn't tell them about my impulsiveness and how I manage it. And how I'm a very controlled and rational person.
As a matter of fact, I think I'm the opposite of bipolar. When I'm not depressed, I'm really normal. I don't waste my money, I only gambled once and when I noticed I would lose money, I never gambled again. Don't do illegal drugs. Never cheated on my wife and we're together since 2009.
Sometimes I do something that's not rational, or badly thought, but it's normal. I just don't think the moments I act in dumb thoughtless way are hipomania.
For example, I talked with my previous boss about a place that wanted to hire me but I didn't like the company, 2 months later I was fired. In hindsight I shouldn't have talked to him about it.
Another thing was when I was looking for job, my FIL said some shit for my MIL about us that I didn't like, so I applied for a job in another State. Or when I was buying stuff I overspent and now I'm struggling financially. But these are pontual things, not things that always happen.
So, is it possible I have just bipolar's depression? Not the hipomania? Is it just depression? Because velanfaxine didn't work well with me.