Will I make it out?🥺
He had me in chokehold and threw me into a wall (or maybe it was the fridge or table I don’t remember).
I saw white. Bruised, bloody. Literally deep bruising for a month (I’ve been bruise free for just a week).
He never apologized.
Took me 5 days to tell anyone, pressed charges. He called me from jail saying “I need you to get me a lawyer”
Mind you I have no money, no car anymore, and that was one of the first times he’s actually let me use his money despite us living together for 4 years. He controls everything.
Ubered around, retained the lawyer, got him out on bond. Laid low for a month so no one would know he was violating the no contact order.
His defense lawyer pressured me for sex.
Advised me to say I started the fight. It wasn’t what I wrote in my statement, but I insisted to the investigator that that happened anyway.
Abusers felony was dismissed yesterday.
Found out he’s also been seeing escorts while he’s been home. Again. But found out once again today.
He’s threatening to kick me out and say that the money I used wasn’t authorized (even though he gave me the info on a recorded jail call)
There’s not even a working bathroom in this house tucked in suburbia.
My kid is with a family member because of being involved with him. The shelters are full.
I’m dying of shame, of fear, of hopelessness. I feel so worthless.
Don’t really know how much longer I can go.
I’m 30f btw. He’s almost 40. Been with him most of my 20s.
Losing my will to live.