u/Deep-Dance-2557

I got blood twice and there was a lot of pain around a month ago, so I decided to see a doctor and they told me I have fissure. First she said she'll do prictoscopy on my 1st appointment, but then on the second appointment when she asked me how I was doing she didn't ask for proctoscopy that left me wondering if she payed attention or not.

Many suggested to see a different doctor, but I don't see the purpose of doing so like ok shell be like yes youve hemorrhoids then what? they dont have any solution for it and I don't wanna go through a surgery. Well today I felt like my stool wasn't completely evacuated and seeing these pictures looks like Ive multiple swellings.

Ive started sitz bath from yesterday but without salt because it felt extremely weird to add salt into your genitals, what should I do??

Can anyone please please please share their chaajao with me???

ok so gng I bought the doggar's social sciences book and wtf? why are the options either written in bold letters or the answer is literally mentioned below the question? how are we supposed to practice like this??????

Book tau achi kaam ki lag rahi hai with detailed notes and everything but why tf this bs???

So a few days ago I had an appointment that has left me deep in thibking idk why? I felt like the doctor didn't pay much attention to me and that's because im not good enough😭 ik gng this sound extremely stupid.

The thing is I have no social life and I don't talk much at home either, so these small interactions stay stuck with me for longer longer periods. Now the thing is I feel fomo after coming from the appointment, Allah maaf kare not the fomo of being at the hospital, but the fomo that why didn't I choose pre med? rn I am a gap year student and I did my intermediate in pre engineering and I never felt like I should choose pee med not even for a sec, but now I feel fomo even though I have heard from doctors that doctor's life is shit in Pakistan. Maybe the voices in my head accusing me of being a failure have grown so much that now I am not only comparing myself to my batchmatss and friends but also to a doctor I visited.

Maybe I got insecure looking at her because she was so so pretty and was looking so good: her hairs, her dress everything looked so perfect. Meanwhile I still don't know how to manage my hairs.