Dating A Married Woman - Why Did I Do This To Myself?
Alrighty, this is a long one. (Throwaway acc)
So about a year ago I was scrolling tinder, matched with a girl, let’s call her Lily..I saw she liked me, but lived far.
We chatted, video called, and instantly fell for her.
Ended up saying I love you after like, 2 days of talking, (I know, I got issues lmao.) but something just magnetized me toward her.
I told her she can come see me anytime, and she hit me up the next day, I said she couldn’t come, got very mad, me being a weirdo and not wanting to lose this girl that I just latched onto, said I love you, fixed everything.
She ended up hitting me up that night, she took a $200 uber to come see me, we had sex, and from then on it just blossomed into both of us love bombing each other, very intense, talking all the time, typical cup caking stuff.
Later comes to find out she’s actually married. the guy is extremely well off but does not satisfy her at all in the bedroom, and apparently I did.
We continue to have this “relationship” that just kept crossing more and more lines. I was sleeping in their house while her husband was home, she’d sneak over to the room I’m in to fuck, I’d come over when he was at work, and even had plans to move in under the guise of a gay tenant.
Now, her and her husband have an agreement where she can have a girlfriend, so she was able to guise the constant talking and texting with that.
I’ve never, ever felt so loved by someone..probably why I put up with a lot of red flags, and fell in love with her. We’ve exchanged gifts, she’s bought me stuff for my hobbies, jewelry, everything a happy relationship would have, but literally the happiest one I’ve ever had.
She tends to say some really mean stuff when drunk, I brush it off, but today..
I had gotten off from work and drove 1.5 hours to see her, we went to a spot and swam, and I wanted to spend time with her, and accidentally booked a hotel room, I asked if she’s down to split it and she said we can, if you leave ( I had to go home tonight anyway) and me and my husband can use the room. We wanted to use the hot tub, pool, and then the room obviously
She’s always said her husband HATES sex for some reason, she has a very very high sex drive and Im the only one she’s been with aside her husband, and she really enjoys it with me.
On the drive home, she ultimately gave me her perspective about her being a gold digger basically, and one thing really got me, she said she’s just with me to pass the time, and knows it’s the same with me (it wasn’t)
And then I kinda brushed it off until we were at the pool and I was like let’s go up to the room, but she wanted to stay, and it came time to leave, then everything hit me, what she said, how like disposable I felt, etc. don’t know what’s gonna happen with us but just wanted to vent and hear people say how retarded I am I guess.
It ended on a weird note, don’t really know if we’re together.