I finally got a job. Blood clot two days after.
I didn't mean for this to happen. I got the job on Wednesday. Found out Thursday that I have a massively long blood clot in my leg. 7 times the size of a standard SVT. Thankfully its not a DVT right now, but its apparently 1.3mm from a major arterial junction.
In training, I was told that if I had medical needs, even from day 1, they would make accomodations for me.
I walked into work today dreading this conversation. I didnt even make it to the back. I told my boss that until I talk to my doctor, I dont want to lift anything, and I need to have a place to sit every half hour or so. He says "well we need workers" and gives me the "I dont know" look. I told him I absolutely cannot quit. Nothing. I tell him I am going to call in sick today and try to figure it out with my doctor.
Ive been underemployed for about 3 years now. Random gigs. Tried to do Uber eats walking, sat there for an hour, zero orders.
All of this feels like my fault. Its not even a job in my field but I was so happy to think I could finally stop welfare, maybe go to a dentist, start taking my health more seriously and eat real, nutritious food instead of whatever I can afford. I didn't want to trick anyone but I feel like this blood clot trojan horsed itself into my job now.
Nobody wants to work though, am I right?
I'm crying over a cup of coffee. I wish this was the only horrible, unprecedented thing to happen to me in the last few months, but no, I guess I don't get to have a job either.