u/Dramatic-Rule1411

As a child I was bullied by people for my brown skin.This led me to various mental health conditions.

This has resulted in me having a strong preference for caucasian guys which is not that bad because everybody has their own preferences.

But whats hurting me is that I have become infatuated to a lot and I am constantly thinking about them.Whats horrible is that whenever I see a woman of colour with a caucasian guy it makes me extremely jealous and hurt and I don't want to feel this way.I want to get rid of this thing.

Guys try to tell me what could have led to this kind of serious issue for me.

I have OCD and I am trying to work on it is this some kind of OCD subtype?

Guys I have a very unconventional name.

Tezziana

I have been bullied for this thing by people and it has destroyed my confidence.

I am consistently thinking about this thing as I have OCD.

I have never spoken up about this thing to anybody because of fear of judgement but as I am healing now I am feeling the urge to let it out.

Idk what to do guys.:(