Opinion needed
I'm a female dating someone we met in nov 2025 but just after 1 week of meeting him I had to move from that city to my home for boards he said he can't continue ldr but still kept me hanging treated me badly, actually very badly even after i said I'll come every month to meet you and all, my birthday falls in dec he didn't wish me on my birthday I called him then he wished me and no story no message through the whole day I still stayed i came to his city later in dec and found through a common friend that he's been texting other girl i confronted him , he apologized I still stayed. I was raped later in dec someone spiked my drink i didn't tell him cuz I knew he'll leave me but eventually I told him after few days and exactly that was happening he was saying things like mujhe ghin aati h terese and all I still stayed and made him stay cut to after my boards i got to know about everything about him how he's been cheating on me since starting with multiple girls and I still stayed when I found out about another girl he went concert with he choose her saying I wanted to go and you weren't there for me I was sick had panick and anxiety attacks since I've been in relationship with him he started treating me nicely in April I went to his city in April met him tried ending things but he said I'll block everyone you want cutoff every girl I stayed and i lied to him that I shifted to his city but I'm still at home bcuz my parents didn't allow me but I wanted to keep him cuz I loved him unconditionally I go to his city every month and meet him like i live there but recently he met with and accident and wanted me there as he knows that I'm in his city still I didn't come to meet him ,I got to know about his accident I'm in immense guilt that I can't be there when he needed me bcuz my parents are strict and wouldn't allow me to go to his city, AM I DOING WRONG? SHOULD I BE GUILTY?