Serious Issue...
I am a muslim woman, married into polygyny as a virgin. I'm in my 30's and disabled use a wheelchair, which is why I will not be having kids... We have been married a few months, but I can't bring myself to be intimate with him. I get sad that he's my first but I'm not his, when as a disabled woman saving myself has been really hard, there was stigma stereotype prejudice etc you can't imagine... Every time I try, my mind goes back to I saved myself for him but he already had his first time I kinda feel cheated now. But my environment told me, polygyny was my only good option and now my head and my heart break at the thought of having my first time and not having that mutual experience what do I do I feel so sad! I waited so long to be married :(