Tired of not being in control of my own mind.
Fresh out of a relationship and already obsessed with someone new. Someone very unavailable to me. Logically I know it's just chasing the brain chemicals, hyper fixating on them, insecurities/low self esteem and a good old dose of rejection sensitivity.
Yet I still find myself obsessing, ruining my life just for the chase to speak with them and thinking about them all the time and convincing myself I'm falling for them. I don't know how to get it under control.
Also flaring up all my other self hatred and binge eating problems.
I have no one to talk to except this person and some mutual friends who I can't tell this stuff to.
I just wish I knew how to stop this taking control of my and spiralling so badly.
I've tried looking for advice online and it all makes sense yet I don't seem to be strong enough to regain control and do any of it. I feel like I'm fucking up what I have with them and I'm scared if it does develop into something I'll lose interest as soon we get together and I don't wanna lose this person as a friend.