I’m crying so bad idk if my bf is abusive or not
So basically I hate to turn to Reddit again about my relationship but it’s 4am and I’m still a bit tipsy and I cannot sleep. I have been on and off work my bf since 15 now 18 and about 6 months ago I caught girls on his Snapchat and watching porn and he stopped and i eventually got over it. He is still horrible to me sometimes so many issues but when he’s good he’s so so good and gentle with me and i genuinely have nobody else. About 3 weeks ago he had another mental spiral which ended up in hon being so angry and refusing to leave my apartment so I kicked myself on the bathroom but he ended up breaking down a door and pushing me on the floor and bruising all my legs and hurting me so I left him and I felt relived and left him andwhen made some male freinds and was sleeping better this weekend he came over to fix the door and he never ended up fixing it and convinced me to let him pay for my nails and take me out for food. The next day after I went to the shop to get him a drink and see him wanking off to porn again of a transgender in my kitchen and tried to however and when I seen got angry and tried throwing himself our a window and tried to throw his phone at me or missed and left a massive hole on my wall and neibours called the police and I don’t know what to do