Breakup Guilt
Hi everyone!! I’m struggling af and feel like nobody understands just how deeply guilt is eating away at me. I was in a relationship for six months with a genuinely amazing person, but I had to end it for quite a few reasons. We were already suffering from incompatibilities, and they made the choice to pursue an option to live abroad for 9 months next year starting late summer. I couldn’t handle it. I felt like there were too many fundamental differences, and knew that adding a 6 hour time difference would not do anything to strengthen our relationship. I wish that I hadn’t been so honest with them about my OCD, and how much specifically Rocd contributed to my decision, but unfortunately it was just the truth. I was really struggling in our relationship and felt so lonely and anxious. However, and I’m sure a lot of you experience this too, I feel extreme guilt all the time about even the smallest things. As I’m sure you can imagine, being the one to have to end a relationship with an awesome person because love wasn’t enough is really fucking with me. I feel evil. I feel like I can’t move on because I don’t deserve happiness. I don’t know how to just accept that I did what I had to with the information I had at the time. Does anyone have any advice/ has anyone been through something similar? I’m feeling really alone right now, and the ocd element is especially isolating. Thank you in advance 🧡