What should I(18F) do if I love my boyfriend(20M), but I keep wondering what it would be like to date a woman instead?
I don't know how to talk about this but I need a opinion. I'm a 100% bisexual. I mostly date men, couse i can't find many women that i would date. Rn I'm in one month middle distance relationship (3/4 hours drive) with a man and i can say for sure that i love him. He is surely not perfect, but he is trying his best to make me happy. For that 1 month we met 3 times and it's was pretty good.
The problem is that ik i like and love him, but I'm always thinking "what if i was in a relationship with a woman" and i start overthinking about our relationship, about my feelings etc.
I had 1 relationship with a woman the problem there was that she was 3 years younger than me (14 and 17) and I wasn't okay with her talking about sexual things and i broke up with her because i started feeling bad about me being in relationship with a child. But in that relationship I truly felt what it was like to love and feel loved, which I had never felt to such a level in a relationship with a man.
I just don't know if I'm gonna want to be with my bf in the future. Rn if I'm thinking about a future with him It sounds good, fun, full of love, but I'm scared of that i could break up with him one day, because that relationship isn't enough for me. And i don't want to be in relationship if ik that I will have no future with this person. And yeah ik I'm young and i don't need to think about the future like some of you would say, but i need a opinion about my situation.