Months prior to mission
I am starting on my mission in exactly a month. I heard from friends that already left that the months after receiving your call and before leaving, were some of the hardest months to go through. They said that they all went through struggles that made them not want to serve, but they all pushed through and went anyways. Their struggles were a lot different from what i am going through now, and i don’t know how to get through mine.
I have lost a lot of my testimony which used to be super strong. I still have a very strong testimony of Jesus Christ and the theological beliefs of our church, but am struggling with the Book of Mormon and church history a lot.
I have had super strong spiritual experiences at FSY and other places that confirmed my knowledge of this church, but I find myself doubting my own experiences based off of what I’ve read. I also have really struggled to feel the spirit in the past few months, even with my patriarchal blessing and my endowment.
Has anyone else dealt with similar things that can help me to regain my testimony?