Sudden BED Relapse?
Growing up, I had severe BED, but in my late 20s I got a good handle on it. For about 3-4 years I almost never had an out of control unplanned episode. I lost a lot of weight and felt I had successfully done the work to have a good relationship with food.
Then one day after taking too many edibles I had an unplanned out of control binge. They did not stop.
I tried cutting out cannabis, changing my diet, seeing a therapist that specializes in ED, but nothing helps. Completely sober and well fed I have overwhelming desires to binge eat.
A year later, extinguishing or quietting the food noise feels impossible at this point. I have gained weight and feel horribly ashamed. I feel at a loss and confused how I relapsed so suddenly and badly with food.