hi! over the last 7 months i've really struggled with my weight because I started gaining back what i spent months trying to loose. i'm reaching a breaking point and trying to do something about this - please help.
im a 20(f), ~168/170 pounds, 5'10. From April 2025 - September 2025 i lost around 30 pounds. i felt so amazing until my birthday where i binged for the first time in months. from the point on, i would be binging once every week or so. however, it wasn't really making too much of a difference because i was in a calorie deficit the rest of the week.
i met my boyfriend in october and that's when everything changed. we started eating out more. i know it's not the cause of all the weight, but i know this is where my downfall started. i used to be really good about just getting a drink and having something small, but then i gave in.
by december i was 154 pounds. when i went home for winter break, i tried to loose weight but ended up in the calorie deficit and binging cycle. i finished the break at 155.
by february, i reached 158. i started binging once every week oreos and other junk food i could grab. i would have the whole chips and salsa from chilis and eat a lot out.
from february to april, i went from 158 to ~170.
that brings me here. i haven't weighed myself in 2ish weeks and i'm genuinely frightened to because i don't want to see 170. i started last year at ~190 pounds, so i know where i am now is healthier than that, but i was once the lightest i'd ever been and felt AMAZING.
over the last couple days, i've reached a breaking point of tears. i said a couple days ago that i would lock back in, but it always ends up with ice cream at the end of the day or binging. i really need a reality check and need someone to help me in that regard. i need to loose the weight and i want to loose it.
my goal is to loose 20 pounds over the three months (100 days) i get off in the summer. i use the "lose it" app and today it predicted that i can loose 20 by january. i broke down in my car.
i think i can loose the 20 in 3 months, but i need help getting back into it. please can someone help me?