Really struggling and I no longer feel like I’m in control
I have been struggling with my mental health for over a decade and I no longer know what to do. I have no friends I am incapable of making new connections bc of my anxiety. My thoughts loop all day long I feel like I cannot control them they won’t stop. I have been in back to back relationships my whole life none of which have been stable. I feel like I need a partner to live and when they leave I feel like I’m dying and I engage in very alarming behavior that I am ashamed of. I don’t know what to do but I don’t want to do this anymore. I cannot imagine a world where I’m free from this. I want to be free from this.