Hi everyone, as the title says I am really questioning my gender identity. Heres a backstory about me for context: I was a tomboy for as long as I can remember. Unfortunately bullying was so bad to where I dressed how society wanted me to until 7-8 grade. I started questioning around 6th grade and came out to friends in 8th grade. I socially transitioned in high school and it was great. My parents are not supportive of me so I did not get to medically transition until I was an adult. I started T at 19 (I am now 21), no surgeries yet.
I do not know what it is with me recently but like.. do you ever just question yourself? what if you made the wrong choice? I am also getting back into more “feminine” qualities and things I used to like (which I know this doesnt determine your gender). But I just want to like experiment with presenting as female again.. idk..
I see girls hanging out with eachother and feel envy. This happened today at the store. Idk, alot of times I just feel out of place. I feel like I never gave myself a chance to express femininity in a way that I was comfortable with. I always thought I was really ugly and people bullied me alot in school. I am happy with the physical changes from T, and I wouldnt say that im really dysphoric about anything.
Also, I am currently in therapy but Im considering seeing a gender therapist. Thanks for reading, any advice is appreciated :)
TL:DR Ive been on T for 3 years. I started questioning in 6th grade, I am 21 now. I feel like I never gave myself a chance to express femininity in a way that was comfortable for me. Now I am constantly questioning myself and idk what to do