u/Echale_ganas1019

Im curious about shadow work but don't know where to start and what/who to trust.

I had awful anxiety after a great date with someone I never expected to have such a strong connection with. The chemistry was incredible, and instead of enjoying it, I spent the last four days replaying every little moment in my head.

After a failed five year marriage, dating has been a journey of constantly meeting not just new people, but new versions of myself. This date felt different. I realized I liked him more than I expected to, and not just mentally. It was the kind of attraction you feel in your whole body the excitement, the desire, the feeling of being fully alive.

What surprised me most was how I showed up. In my marriage, I spent years self abandoning and people pleasing. On this date, I didn't do that. I stayed connected to myself. I checked in with myself throughout the night. I stayed grounded in my own energy instead of getting lost in his.

Today I had a realization: the anxiety wasn't coming from the date itself. It was coming from the fact that I didn't abandon myself.

In the past, I would shape-shift into whatever version of me I thought would make someone stay. This time I didn't. And without that old coping mechanism, I was left sitting with uncertainty.

The anxiety wasn't about whether he liked me. It was grief for an old version of myself who believed she had to earn love by leaving herself behind.

It's uncomfortable. It's painful. But I think this is what growth feels like.

I hope we all get to frolic in this space one day! 💕✨🧚

I had awful anxiety after a great date with someone I never expected to have such a strong connection with. The chemistry was incredible, and instead of enjoying it, I spent the last four days replaying every little moment in my head.

After a failed five year marriage, dating has been a journey of constantly meeting not just new people, but new versions of myself. This date felt different. I realized I liked him more than I expected to, and not just mentally. It was the kind of attraction you feel in your whole body the excitement, the desire, the feeling of being fully alive.

What surprised me most was how I showed up. In my marriage, I spent years self abandoning and people pleasing. On this date, I didn't do that. I stayed connected to myself. I checked in with myself throughout the night. I stayed grounded in my own energy instead of getting lost in his.

Today I had a realization: the anxiety wasn't coming from the date itself. It was coming from the fact that I didn't abandon myself.

In the past, I would shape-shift into whatever version of me I thought would make someone stay. This time I didn't. And without that old coping mechanism, I was left sitting with uncertainty.

The anxiety wasn't about whether he liked me. It was grief for an old version of myself who believed she had to earn love by leaving herself behind.

It's uncomfortable. It's painful. But I think this is what growth feels like.

I hope we all get to frolic in this space one day! 💕✨🧚