u/Eclypisa

I only trace poses and facial proportions as I'm still learning them, and I would much rather spend more time on color/rendering, since my sketches already take 1-3 hours even with tracing.

I've shared my artwork with a few friends and don't post any of my art publicly. In the future, though, when I improve more and can draw decently quickly without tracing, I would probably want to start posting online.

Is this okay?

As the flair says, another DAE post...

From an outside perspective, I don't think anyone would assume that I'm emotionally sensitive. I get hurt easily and feel emotions deeply, but I just have a hard time expressing them, and don't necessarily want to express them either.

I'm amicable, but also a rather distant person. If I'm friendly but don't let people get too close and make my emotions difficult to read, there's no risk of getting hurt.

Because oftentimes, when I do get hurt, I deal with my emotions logically, rationalizing my feelings instead of just feeling them, which just leads to frustration. It's not very logical to be moping for 40 minutes over a disagreement with a friend, and yet it happens. Externally, I'm able to regulate how I express my emotions with ease, but internally, it's basically impossible, and I hate that lack of control.

I find it pretty easy to be social (although I struggled with it a lottt when I was younger), so I do have a lot of friends, but they're more like close acquaintances. I chat with them while at school, but we wouldn't really contact each other outside of that unless necessary.

A few of those friends I hang out with occasionally, but to be honest, a lot of times I wish I had just stayed home instead. It's not that I had a bad time or anything, but I just don't feel that click, and it felt exactly the same with my ex-best friend.

I was the one who ended up drifting from them because every time we would hang out, I would just feel drained. I think we just weren't compatible.

We didn't have the same humour or interests, and they would call me almost daily for 6+ hrs even if nothing was being said. It comforted them, so I stayed, but it just felt so constricting to me. A minor act that made me feel like they didn't really care for me was the final straw, and now we don't talk anymore. I really don't think that they're a bad person; we just aren't compatible. And I've felt this for almost every friendship I've had.

Kind of embarrassing to admit, but legit my closest friend is my mom, who's the only person that truly makes me laugh and that I enjoy talking to. My other close friends are all online, and I get along with them as we share the same hobby, art.

I don't know if this is a personal problem, and my standards are just too high, but I just really wish that I had a friend that I could truly get along with. Do you just have to get lucky and find the right person, or just settle for a friend, even if you don't feel that connection?

Feel free to rant or leave any thoughts!

To clarify, I find it pretty easy to be social, although I struggled with it a lottt when I was younger, so I do have a lot of friends, but they're more like close acquaintances. I chat with them while at school, but we wouldn't really contact each other outside of that unless necessary.

A few of those friends I hang out with occasionally, but to be honest, a lot of times I wish I would've just stayed home instead. It's not that I had a bad time or anything, but I just don't feel that click, and it felt exactly the same with my ex-best friend.

I was the one who ended up drifting from them because every time we would hang out, I would just feel drained. I think we just weren't compatible.

We didn't have the same humour or interests, and they would call me almost daily for 6+ hrs even if nothing was being said. It comforted them, so I stayed, but it just felt so constricting to me. A minor act that made me feel like they didn't really care for me was the final straw, and now we don't talk anymore. I really don't think that they're a bad person; we just aren't compatible. And I've felt this for almost every friendship I've had.

Kind of embarrassing to admit, but legit my closest friend is my mom, who's the only person that truly makes me laugh and that I enjoy talking to. My other close friends are all online, and I get along with them as we share the same hobby, art.

I don't know if this is a personal problem, and my standards are just too high, but I just really wish that I had a friend that I could truly get along with. Do you just have to get lucky and find the right person, or just settle for a friend, even if you don't feel that connection?

Feel free to rant or leave any thoughts!

I'm probably somewhere between avoidant and secure attachment

Where to even start... I'm not quite sure what's wrong with me. I've always been a procrastinator since childhood, but I also have a strong sense of responsibility, and it just leads to so many issues.

1. My sleep schedule is horrible. I find myself always sleeping late since I only gain the energy and momentum to actually start a task well into the night, either from the pressure of an approaching due date or the result of hyping myself up to do the task hours prior.
2. My capacity for what I'm able to take on is too low. I can only manage to do the homework I have, and anything else is basically out of the question, especially studying. At most, I cram the night before by watching videos, somehow having faith that I'll be okay. This isn't exclusive to quizzes or tests, but even big exams. I just can't get myself to study, no matter how much I want to.
3. I can barely keep a routine. The only consistent routine task I have is showering daily as soon as I get home, which took almost a year of effort to achieve. Still, I can only motivate myself enough to shower by constantly having some sort of stimulation, whether it be music or social media. This applies to other simple tasks as well, such as getting up in the morning.

Am I just too lazy and not have enough discipline to break free from my procrastination and horrible time management? These habits have been affecting me daily, and I'm having trouble finding a solution since I don't even know what this could be. Any insight would be appreciated!

I'm currently writing my paper which is now at 1000 words--I'm presenting on tues, so I'm trying to get it done in order to make my slides tomorrow

if you're in a similar situation, know that you're not alone... we got this...

I normally sleep at 2-3 am, and somehow force myself to wake up at 7 am because I have to get to class by 8 am, but I had the day off today, so I ended up sleeping in until 1 p.m.

I had planned to be productive and finally make progress on my to-do list, but I ended up getting absolutely nothing done. I'm so frustrated at myself for how I decided to use my time for the day, and find myself wishing I could somehow restart the day every time this happens.

When I wake up late, I feel like the functioning time I have for the day gets cut short... it just completely throws me off, and it's like I have no time to really do anything.

I only manage to wake up early when I have some sort of important obligation, and I find that I'm more productive, but then just feel horribly tired the whole day.

I don't know if this is related to DSPD, or if I'm just blaming my lack of productivity on my sleep schedule, so I was wondering if this was relatable.