u/EconomyDaikon9703

Yeah the title is pretty much it. I (16F) don't know if my bone structure is actually as bad as I think it is or if it's just body dysmorphia or whatever, but I have narrow hips and I'm kind of knock kneed which has always made me insecure. My absolute worst fear is gaining weight in recovery and looking so ugly I can't wear any of my favorite clothes, or be cute anymore. :( I keep saying that it won't happen like that, I'll try to gain more muscle instead of fat, but I can't stop thinking that I'm going to suddenly become morbidly obese and look hideous. My appearance is everything to me and I just don't know if I can do this :(

Yeah the title is pretty much it. I (16F) don't know if my bone structure is actually buns like I think it is or if it's just body dysmorphia or whatever, but I have narrow hips and I'm kind of knock kneed. My absolute worst fear is gaining weight in recovery/going over 94 lbs (my hw. I know it's lame and I'm a larp.) .and looking so ugly I can't wear any of my favorite clothes, or be cute anymore. :( I keep saying that it won't happen like that, I'll try to gain more muscle instead of fat, but I can't stop thinking that I'm going to suddenly become morbidly obese and look hideous. My appearance is everything to me and I just don't know if I can do this :(