I need help with this
Im 16F I know it might be hard to believe my story. But everything I'm saying is the truth. I have school tomorrow and I'm just so ready to tell the counselor what I've gone through. But my problem is, I have no family here. My father's highly respected among my community. And my mom is always on his side and my dad never hits my brother and he's 18 now so he's free to do whatever. But I'm stuck. I have no money, I have nowhere to go and I'm afraid if CPS gets called I will be in foster care, which is something i really don't want. Two nights ago I was in his bathroom and I was touching this small little mirror that he has and I left my fingerprints on the mirror and he came and he grabbed a wire and he hit me with it. I remember when i was 11 and I was sitting in front of him rocking in a chair and he was like, stop rocking, stop rocking. And then I yelled back at him and I got up to leave because he was gonna charge at me and he grabbed the TV remote and threw it at my head and I ended up in the hospital that same night because i needed stitches in my head wouldn't stop bleeding and he lied to the hospital and i just wanted to scream and tell them he was lying but i was an 11 year old girl and i didn't know what to do. none of my family friends know what's going on and i don't want to go live with them and i don't want to tell them what's going on or be a burden on anybody because that's the last thing i want. i'm going to be brutally honest with you i've been hit by my father more than 100 times and it's and it's caused me to have suicidal thoughts like i'm telling myself i rather die than my father be exposed. maybe in another life i have the courage to speak. He wont let me leave the house with out him ive asked him about drivers ed a week ago and he spit in my face someone guide me