u/Effective-Lawyer-810

What do I do?

I (27M) was diagnosed late into my life, just 4 years ago.

I had been raw dogging my entire life, which worked entirely fine until I was a kid. Teenage hit me, and I realized that I was lagging behind everyone, even the kid who missed classes due to sickness. Somehow I ended up finishing a masters, however I wasn't able to find a job that I studied for. ALL MY ENTIRE ADULT LIFE. Worked in various side gigs, yet nothing that would pay my student loans or make bank for my future.

I tried medication 3 years ago, starting with Ritalin and Concerta, but they went saturated and stopped being effective once I started to get adapted to them. Then I shifted to Adderall, which wasn't the correct one for me. Trying Vyvanse was like a godsend suggestion, like it was the only one drug that stayed for over 11 hours, put me active, kept me working, made me stay focused and interested. I felt like life gave me the answer to all my questions and my routines. I felt like I could work every day for hours and hours finally, without feeling like dozing off or being sleepy.

And so when I get ready for my next prescription, my finances make it hard to pay for my health insurance. I end up coming into a "pre-existing condition" zone for the insurance because I had a day or two lapse and the policy became old now. Stopped it, went on for 3 years, and let it go completely. Couldn't even pay for my health insurance all that while (mind you, this is the US we are talking about, so getting a health insurance costs as much as a rent of a shared room).

Somehow a few months ago, it felt like I need to give this another shot. So I again went to a doctor again, paid my insurance, got prescribed. And it felt like good 2 months where I could do anything and everything. Apart from times when I had anxiety attacks, it was a very successful drug for me. I still haven't been anywhere near my goals, but this made sure that I stayed on track for them.

And then 2 weeks ago, I ended up not being able to pay for my health insurance again. Everything went back to square one. My Vyvanse prescription ended a week ago, so now I'm again raw dogging, fighting my head to keep me asleep, and making myself motivated again. All to fail successfully. What do I do?

In the meantime though, I once tried redbull, and that worked for me. However, it was temporary as in for 3 hours, I was getting used to it too, and the results were just nice and not perfect. Coffee made me more jittery than motivated. Nicotine would make no difference, and on top of that it would leave me dead asleep the next 3 days. I have yet to find a substitute that works for me, or else I have to end up in a place where I can't access Vyvanse (amphetamine salts are banned across various countries in the world even for medical reasons). What does anyone suggest me to do? And what can be a fix?

I (27M) was diagnosed late into my life, just 4 years ago.

I had been raw dogging my entire life, which worked entirely fine until I was a kid. Teenage hit me, and I realized that I was lagging behind everyone, even the kid who missed classes due to sickness. Somehow I ended up finishing a masters, however I wasn't able to find a job that I studied for. ALL MY ENTIRE ADULT LIFE. Worked in various side gigs, yet nothing that would pay my student loans or make bank for my future.

I tried medication 3 years ago, starting with Ritalin and Concerta, but they went saturated and stopped being effective once I started to get adapted to them. Then I shifted to Adderall, which wasn't the correct one for me. Trying Vyvanse was like a godsend suggestion, like it was the only one drug that stayed for over 11 hours, put me active, kept me working, made me stay focused and interested. I felt like life gave me the answer to all my questions and my routines. I felt like I could work every day for hours and hours finally, without feeling like dozing off or being sleepy.

And so when I get ready for my next prescription, my finances make it hard to pay for my health insurance. I end up coming into a "pre-existing condition" zone for the insurance because I had a day or two lapse and the policy became old now. Stopped it, went on for 3 years, and let it go completely. Couldn't even pay for my health insurance all that while (mind you, this is the US we are talking about, so getting a health insurance costs as much as a rent of a shared room).

Somehow a few months ago, it felt like I need to give this another shot. So I again went to a doctor again, paid my insurance, got prescribed. And it felt like good 2 months where I could do anything and everything. Apart from times when I had anxiety attacks, it was a very successful drug for me. I still haven't been anywhere near my goals, but this made sure that I stayed on track for them.

And then 2 weeks ago, I ended up not being able to pay for my health insurance again. Everything went back to square one. My Vyvanse prescription ended a week ago, so now I'm again raw dogging, fighting my head to keep me asleep, and making myself motivated again. All to fail successfully. What do I do?

In the meantime though, I once tried redbull, and that worked for me. However, it was temporary as in for 3 hours, I was getting used to it too, and the results were just nice and not perfect. Coffee made me more jittery than motivated. Nicotine would make no difference, and on top of that it would leave me dead asleep the next 3 days. I have yet to find a substitute that works for me, or else I have to end up in a place where I can't access Vyvanse (amphetamine salts are banned across various countries in the world even for medical reasons). What does anyone suggest me to do? And what can be a fix?