Has anyone else developed coping antics? Hair pulling, nail biting, constant posture re positioning etc This is my daily groove now. The abnormal is now the norm.
Has anyone else developed coping tics? Ie biting nails or clothing readjustmemt or whatever.
I find myself readjusting my hair clip and tightening it as much as I can many,many, many times a day- even when we are not around each other. It is to the point where I have to re-order my hair clips (to keep hair back and tight) as often as I have money for because they break. I have other coping mechanisms but just wanna chat about these hellish stims we do to try and process toxicity. He hates my hair red or short. And I am at my breaking point where maybe I will do both.
Also on a newish medication that seems to make me want to eat late at night. So I have gained a little weight. Again, he is overweight but has alot of criticism for those that don't meet his standards.
It is like my mind and body want to do the opposite. I need to get away but am trapped. Worried my hair will start falling out soon too.
This life is insane 😭