Renewing Friendship with ex friends that Im curious about
As short as possible. I've got company that i was part of, but I distanced myself from, and our friendship got cold because of different values. And some shitty attitude of them(working behind your back, gossiping, looking down on me) but everithing was lowkey. We know eachother for about 2+ years from work.
They started going to raves and doing drugs, which I was a part of, but that's wasnt my cup of tea and they continued while I left. They were two my friends one i got closed with and one with who is great only if we have fun. There shortly was guy who was master at drugs you know but things started to be dramatic and they quarreled and kicked him. First guy stopped working and second still work with me but we dont have much of a contact.
Both of them are single but succesful with woman and im not. Also both have better sociall lives than me.
The thing is they going on vacation next month with two and Im invited. It would be my first vacation off the country.
Meanwhile they lowered drug use, and Im getting invited to light- raves from first guy. But not sure should i accept. First guy is really good with anyone (just chill guy) but really manipulative especially with girls, and he likes to make fun of my inexpeirence with woman. The second, just Immature fuccboi. We are at the beginning of the 20's.
I planned to find gf to go with her in couple of months. but don't know wheter i will find one. It's summer where i live and people just going out more so I'll get some chance.
ALSO despite them I dont really have true friends. I have 2 guys from work that i planing to go out sometimes and see if we get along. But it's a job but they seem really good guys.
Im also in the self imp. phase cutted bad habits and seeking more meaningful habits in life. But I don't know how to choose between a potential loneliness and a friends I'm just going to have a parties with and nothing else, is it worth it?. ADVICE?