why cant I find someone that I love
Hi, I am a junior in high school (male), and I just can't seem to find someone that I love. I'm not talking about how I can't get a girlfriend, I have had multiple within the past year, and I have been told that I am decently attractive (7.5-8/10). What the problem is, is that I can't seem to find someone that I love. Part of me wonders if I might be Asexual, but I do have "thoughts" of women. The problem is that I never found a girl who I have “loved”. Even in an 8 month long relationship with a girl that I found attractive, after the first 3 months it just turned into sexting. Her personality was nice, but it was almost like I only cared about her body. Even in the relationships after that, the women I dated, I didn't really like their personalities, but I still asked them out anyways. They had annoying, frustrating personalities, but I still dated them. I took them out at least once a week, I was there for them, I supported them. I even said things like, “I love you” even though I don't really mean it. I like her body, she was attractive, she was physically my type. Even with the first girl, she was 100% my type but I just didn't really love her. Maybe I tricked myself into thinking I loved her, but I don't think I do. I think I might have used her. And with the second girl, i wondered why i even decided to date her, she was annoying but she was attractive. Even with this girl I'm talking to, I like her physically, but she's annoying and corny to be around. I don't like her personality, yet I'm still talking to her, and texting her like I like her, like I'm interested in her. Like I said, I wonder if im Asexual, but I'm attracted to women. It's the same thing with almost every talking stage and almost every girl. I just don't know what to do, or what to think, and im partly disgusted in my self. Am i Asexual, or am I something else. I just don't know. I'm confused.
(Also I know I'm not attracted to men, if that helps.)