The loneliness of being a yandere
i think people don’t talk enough about how lonely it is being a yandere.
in my experience no one irl knows i am one, and from what Ive gathered online most yandere‘s haven’t told anyone either.
sometimes it can be really isolating when others are talking about their love life‘s and you know in the back of your head that you’re different, that if you ever slipped up and said something a little too ‘weird’ you’d be labeled as ‘intense’ or as the classic crazy ex people write horror stories about.
that depending on the age you labeled that part of you, if you spoke out about it you might get put in a mental hospital until your ‘fixed’ or pumped full of meds.
some days i get scared that important people in my life might figure me out and suddenly our relationship will be broken forever.
it’s something that I’d never be able to tell my parents or my siblings no matter how close we get in life. Something i’d likely have to keep from my children.
even though my wife would know, chances are she won’t understand It fully.
i just wish that a form of love i consider the purest of all, wasn’t considered so disturbing and ‘dirty’ by society.
why is wanting someone so completely and wholly considered ‘possessive‘?
why is wanting to be around your special someone all the time considered ‘clingy’?
why is loving someone to the point of wanting to do anything for their happiness considered ‘obsessive’?
and why is being those things label you as ’crazy’? why are they even considered negative in the first place?
it just doesn’t make sense to me on why I have to hide my true self from those i love because of these preconceived notions. That i have to be so afraid to be open with others out of fear that they might hate me.
i do know that there are people out there who don’t get hung up on others opinions on them, and therefore are as open about themselves as they wish. But i just can’t help but want people to think i‘m a good person, and for some reason being a yandere is just inherently labeled as something only ‘bad’ people can be.