Does anyone know of an online community or something like a discord for Christian people? Doing this alone isn’t easy at times. Idk if this is even the right way to go about it. For starters I’m 34m, recently came back to God, and I just feel like a failure, to the point where I can’t look at myself and the thoughts are giving me constant headaches, there’s more but that’s the best summary. I feel beyond alone.
I recently came back to God, last year I went through the worse time of my life. Lost 2 loved ones a month apart, partner left me in the midst of it. God got me through it. I’m forever thankful. I gave myself to God through out this journey. I was a huge alcoholic, 15 years drinking, saved by God. Was huge on pornography, now It’s something I don’t care for. But as I’m getting closer, reading the word, praying, building my relationship with the Lord, I keep having these thoughts, where the F word and God come together. I feel so ashamed, so disgusted. I feel paralyzed mentally to the point where I don’t even want to speak to anyone, friends, co workers, my own mother. I don’t know if it’s truly me deciding that these thoughts are how I really feel. I am drained mentally to the point where I can’t even think straight now. Why would I ever think this? I don’t know who to speak to or what to do. I feel beyond ashamed and feels like I will be rejected by God. I’m sorry Lord.
Working overnight sucks, I literally only have a few hours in the morning after work and pretty much just a Saturday to enjoy since I’m sleeping Friday and Sunday due to work. With that said, social life is hard. I’m 34m and all I do is work, gym and game and another hobby but don’t want to give out too much info, kind of paranoid someone might know me here lol. How do I even go about this when it comes to making friends?
This might be a long shot but it’s worth a try. I’m a 34m from Hayward. I’m a music producer and I’ve been trying for a while now to find other music creatives near the area. I dont really play much instruments but I can construct an instrumental and based off experience when working with people who play instruments, the energy is different and the creation process is much better. Hope to possibly meet new people in the area.
This might be a long shot but it’s worth a try. I’m a 34m from Hayward. I’m a music producer and I’ve been trying for a while now to find other music creatives near the area. I dont really play much instruments but I can construct an instrumental and based off experience when working with people who play instruments, the energy is different and the creation process is much better. Hope to possibly meet new people in the area.