Situationship at work didn't move on
so, me and a girl from work were both in 5+Y relationship and instantly clicked, started feeling like soulmates, stated hanging out a lot for some months but we felt confused about our relationships. Her bf stepped in and threw her an ultimatum to choose between both of us, I had a long conversation with her that day, we both reached a conclusion of both of us breaking up our relationships to be together but...
She couldn't do it and I was ready to do it. She says she couldn't do it, that her boyfriend probably deserves her to make an effort to rebuild the relationship, that she is afraid of losing what she built in 5 years. But now, I can't look at my GF the same way, I was 100% ready to leave her.
I told her everything, she forgave me, but I can't take the girl out of head. Specially because she still talks to me almost everyday, the feeling is still there, but sometimes she asks me to try to forget what happened as she wants to try to save her relationship, even though she's doing it for him and not for her. It seems from everything she says that right now he's crawling to her all the time, feeling unsecure and that she has an obligation to not let him down.
But well, here I am absolutely shattered from losing a possible relationship, while having my girlfriend forgiving me and me not being able to "be normal" as I can't get the one who broke my heart away from my head.