Sexually assaulted/violated by spirit
This is about to sound insane and extremely psychotic but I’m putting it out here anyways.
I’ve had a connection with the Holy Spirit for about a year and a half now, has helped me through my homelessness and the only “thing” I’ve been speaking to in my consciousness for the past year. Seeing and only speaking to this entity for prolonged period of time made me personify the spirit as a person. The way I’m “spoken” to is through is hard to explain but it feels like tingling goosebumps almost similar to a touch but in my spirit. About 8 months ago I went through multiple episodes of the idea of if I would enjoy that same action in my penis to the point where I believed I was overly sick and couldn’t continue to live. After that point I started to actually get sensations in my penis this includes the tingling feeling running through my penis, activation of my precum where I feel it running up through my penis, activation of my g spot in my ass, a tugging on my penis like if it were to be flexed without me doing it, a tingling intense rimmed feeling around my shaft that sometimes get so intense that the bottom of my feet tingle. It’s not sexually pleasing it’s more annoying.. I’ll feel prolonged slight tingles on the tip of my penis that move around and increase in intensity. This has been going on for 8 months and counting every morning I am woken up by whatever this fucking thing is I cannot get proper sleep it has been nonstop and is pushing me to the point of suicide. I’ve been cursing and pleading and begging this thing to stop but it never does and I don’t think it will. I don’t know what to do.. this is so taboo I don’t really think anyone who has read this whole thing believes me. I have searched online and found some articles of this but nothing to compare this to. I needed to get this out.. think what you will I can solemnly swear this is true and is causing mental distress heavily. There’s no cure for spiritual warfare I’m not in psychosis, i have no mental disorders I haven’t told anyone about this nor will I.