am i spiritual?
to be completely honest, i think this is silly. (with all due respect. i think what you guys do is cool it just isnt what i believe in.) but things are matching up so weirdly its freaking me out.
i recently got on the spiritual side of TikTok because i liked one blue moon post, i thought it was funny because the post was silly goofy, and then i get 6 in a row about the blue moon and how its affecting people. then i went down a rabbit hole.
ive recently been having stomach aches, trouble sleeping, weird dreams, noticied my vision was a little weird one day, and then it went back to normal. and just generally drained and detached. and oddly enough, thats everything people have mentioned spiritually sensitive people have been experiencing with the blue moon.
then it got me thinking, ill be watching tv on my headphones and a character will say something, and i get this voice in my head telling me itll actualize, and it fucking does 😭 for example, i was reading something and the word "Cat" comes up, then my mom, two seconds later, brings up the cats. i almost have a count down in my head about it too.
not to mention, when i was a kid i'd be falling asleep, and get colored 'visions' in my head about animals, ones i remember are elephants and lions. could just be my autism and prevelant love for animals but i think about it alot. ive always had a love for nature and environmentalism, mostly because i resonate deeply with it.
i could just be being stupid, im sorry that this is so shittily written out, im half asleep and having an existential crisis LMAO. i feel kind of embarrassed talking to people i know about this, i figure i'd go to reddit.