u/EnvironmentalDate823

I finally felt it. The push away. The utter cruelty in the comment and then the little smirk 😏. Ugh! I want to tear my hair out! He’s an outward dismissive and I’m an inward avoidant so we’re in this wonderful death spiral. At least I know where I am and why it hurts so badly. Married 24 years. Been trying so hard. Now I know I have been beating my head against a rock! The absolute discard after all that is the worst! I’m moving out and going to counseling. Been in therapy for a bit now and realizing how much I beat myself up about my marriage and why I couldn’t do it correctly. Just trying to be a decent partner. The pain is unreal😭