AITA for not wanting female coworkers on my BF's motorcycle?
Me 30F, my bf is 27M. We've been in a relationship for two years. Since English is not my native language, I used a translation tool. I need an objective perspective on this matter, please.
My bf's workplace is mostly female. Sinse he owns a motobike, he uses it when he goes to meetings with a colleague. He is quite transtransparent with me about where he goes and who he goes with. How trasnparent he is with me:
There was a New Year's Eve party with the colleagues at the office last year. He showed me all the photos taken that night, including the one where he's holding onto a woman's arm. When I asked why she was holding his arm, he said it was just a brief moment when she wanted to hold on while going down the stairs. Also my boyfriend love sharin gossips.
He shared rumors with me about how even married people at the office cheated on each other with other married people. So here I am middle of complicated feelings. My bf is the only single guy in the office. He's 195 cm tall and has a warm personality.
I find that spesific woman quite sneaky. I've met a couple of people whose intentions I wouldn't doubt, but I don't know the other women, so frankly, the close physical contact while sitting on the motorcycle makes me quite uncomfortable. Because he was transparent with me, I don't want to be a toxic girlfriend because of the information I learned.
He knows I don't like that particular woman, but since he doesn't have a problem with her, they sometimes go to meet up together. Luckily, she has a car. But I'm terrified that my boyfriend, might suggest going with bike. Because finding a parking space is difficult.
My second fear is that my boyfriend will stop being so transparent with me, trying not to make me nervous. That's why I feel the need to act calmly and rationally. But this situation might make me lose interest in the relationship. I don't want to act like I don't care. Also I don't like me feeling toxic.
The third thing that bothers me is that I don't feel comfortable with him going to meet up with his female friends on his motorcycle.
I don't want to change him. Maybe I don't deserve to be with this person because I'm toxic. Do I lack the maturity to be in a relationship? I want to find out. I'm open to suggestions.