confused and angry
so i’ve asked a lot people questions about an SP and his 3P and i’ve taken the advice of just going to the end and instead of putting my focus on them breaking up, putting the focus on me and him and what i want for us. i was living my life less anxious, less stressed, more present, however yesterday something happened that i would’ve never imagined. the past few weeks he’s been telling me how he’s going to break up with her soon, he’s been distancing himself from her and she only helps him out with his work and “it’s barely a relationship anymore,” however yesterday my friend showed me that he fully took her on a designer shopping spree and got her a lot of gifts. i’ve been a ball of anxiety since then. i’ve been so angry, spiraling, i even texted him saying he’s pathetic and then blocked him because why tell me all those things then do that? i know right now i’m becoming a victim to my reality and making the 3D mean something when it doesn’t, but it’s to the point where my boundaries have been crossed so many times and i don’t want to lose him and i still want to be with him but when these things happen i genuinely don’t know what to do. i’ve been trying to revise it but i genuinely can’t have one positive thought right now. if anyone can give me advice to get out of this flight or fight mode please let me know🥹 thank you ❤️