i’m afraid i’ll never get clean
I’m 19 years old (almost 20 now) and kratom/7oh has completely taken over my whole life. I started taking kratom in August of 2024 and had been using it every day multiple times a day. I was spending quite a bit of money but I had a great job so it was manageable. I started taking 7oh in June of 2025 and my life completely spired out of control. I was spending up to $300 a day. I spent all my savings and maxed out my credit card. In October my parents found out about it and sent me to rehab. When I got out of rehab I was so confident I would never use again because the withdrawal was the worst pain I had ever felt. I relapsed not even 3 weeks after getting out. I maxed out another credit card buying 7oh and once i had no more money I had to detox again. I told my family I was done for good. I relapsed again in April and stayed at my boyfriend’s house to detox so my family wouldn’t find out. I relapsed again last week and I’m not even trying to quit anymore. I struggle with treatment resistant depression and anxiety, bipolar 1, and ADHD. As much as i hate 7oh it’s the only thing that makes me feel okay in my own skin. I’m afraid I’ll never be able to quit. I crave it 24/7. It’s the only thing I think about. I just wish i never tried it. my life is hell now.