Jee seniors or frnds please help me out.
I was a bright student since childhood in state level and in 10th karnataka boards I scored 97.8 but I had never known about olympiads or jee. I thought jee is like a simple entrance exam of certain college just writing casually after finishing 12th . But as my father passed away when I was a child I had no guidance of various fields or things.
I know my hardwork decides my future but your guidance can shine it more and easier which I lacked from childhood.
When I entered class 11 my entire environment was focusing on kcet ( karnataka common entrance test ) . No one had a knowledge of iits, nits . Even my teachers didn't talk about these. While in 11th I had a surgery for my shoulder and was laid on bed I got know about iits and nits and their legacy. I was completely stunned in a manner of guilt and regret bcoz my father's dream was like my son should study in a good abroad college and get an excellent future for which he made his savings and eventually when he was hospitalized the savings ended. , I was like I should have at least studied in iit as it is in the level of best reputed colleges.
My 11th was almost waste , now I am in class 12th I talked to my principal and asked alternative days as holidays for my studies. I started my preparation for mains as getting into nit is also an achievement in my house as per my conditions . Also I am a general category EWS candidate . I am currently studying both 11th and 12th from pw. I don't know will I be able to achieve in jee. Many are suggesting to prepare for adv but adv is for deserved people who worked very hard for 2-3 years. Although my dream college is iit I don't know will I even be able to reach to that level in this less time.
I am also focusing on bitsat as it has 100% tution fee wavier >500 rankers.
"Their is no proper guidance for me I have dmed many people but no proper replies, I am asking this very much bcoz my one decision can destroy or build a good future , in which as a senior you can show me the paths that are to be taken ."
Focus on adv(dream) or mains(forceful condition)is my main concern.
I am getting mentally very much disturbed as my mental conditions are also not good I am taking 3-4 tables everyday since 4 years for something called seizure/epilepsy continuous episodes which are currently in my control.
I don't know where my present condition is , I feel like I'm stuck in my life where there is no one to understand my conditions and I have the responsibilities of my house. As I want to earn good and take care of mom their is no possibility that I would take a drop.
Please ignore my grammatical mistakes.
Once again your one advice can change my life.
Waiting for your replies
Thank you for your precious time and at least reading this.