Hello,
For context , I moved away from my family to go to preparatory school. I went back and forth during the holidays, but during the last one I chose to stay here so that I could prepare for the different entrance exams and interviews for the different schools.
I regret this choice because the distance hurts me. And the intense stress over the past two months for my orientation, combined with a lack of confidence in myself and my work, are making me feel very, very bad right now.
I feel extremely alone. I cry all day and when I don’t cry I am mortified by the entrance exams and interviews. I have 2 weeks left to go but it seems impossible to me. I hesitated several times to give up everything, but I would regret it so much after a year of preparatory school.
I have friends here and I regularly call my parents (probably too often). But I miss them terribly during this stressful time. It’s mostly the duration of the stress that makes me overwhelmed, and all of this makes me feel like I won't get into the schools I want because I'm not enough.
Unfortunately, I don’t have much time, so I can’t go see a therapist or even organize it. But if there is any advice or just support, I’m all for it, because I’m reaching the end of my tether.
(Sorry for my english, it's not my 1st Language)