I’ve been trying to reach out to multiple friends that I’ve know for a long time since I’m back in my home city and none of them put in effort into seeing me I genuinely feel like I’m a dog at this point I feel like every friendship should be reciprocated with the amount of respect and love put into a friendship or atleast the same effort into seeing one another I am little weak with dealing with rejection but I’ve been alone for the past month trying to call ppl to go out and none of them are answering I wouldn’t say I’ve been back stabbed but I feel like I’ve been forgotten to all the ppl here its not the same anymore it’s just been so mundane and tedious and it’s making me slightly angry to the point where I just stopped texting them and calling and genuinely don’t want anything to do with them anymore I need you guys is opinion on this .
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The first phase of weed for me when I didn’t even know how to stuff a pre roll properly I had so much fun. Smoking with friends, endless laughter endless euphoria around ppl doesn’t matter with who. Then that led me to smoking every week, then every other day, til I started smoking everyday after the novice phase of weed I started abusing the hell out of it my brain would trick me or I would trick my self into thinking I need to smoke but I didn’t it would make me very self conscious, Hypersensitive, 0 self esteem and I was retarded I couldn’t even articulate a sentence properly and that led me to stopping after 2 years of constant smoking every day or every other day the only days I wouldn’t smoke if the plug couldn’t deliver I went to London tried the weed there it was better then where I’m at currently and it was alright it wasn’t so bad because I was around the person I felt comfortable with smoking, if I were to smoke now with people I didn’t know I wouldn’t have such a good time because when your high you observe more profoundly positively or negatively for me the majority of time it’s negative I currently just want to chill out and smoke again after being sober for a year any recommendations?
Also I realized im very paranoid when high specifically in public places does anyone have this issue