I’m feeling unfulfilled in my relationship (18F&19M)
My bf [19M] and I [18F] have been in a relationship for almost 9 months. He’s my second relationship, first one being a short but serious one and I’m his first. We’ve had some rough moments which were because of his lack of maturity. Given this is his first serious relationship he doesn’t seem to know how to act I guess? The most recent fight we had was something that to me was disrespectful and affected me because he simply did not bother to check with me if it’s okay to do something and there were multiple times that he simply did not take me in consideration. We fought and we talked and I forgave him or I thought I did. In reality these little moments keep replaying and I keep remembering every time he disregarded and upset me and I just can’t seem to get over it and keep getting upset. I’m at the stage in our relationship where I’m not really happy but I can’t say that I’m unhappy either, I’m just in between I don’t even know. I’m feeling unfulfilled, sometimes the thought of ending the relationship creeps in but I don’t necessarily want to end it. And if I talk to him about it what do I even say? There’s nothing necessarily wrong but I just don’t feel like things are good either. Maybe it’s because I’ve also been in a pretty bad state lately but I don’t know. Everything I have in my head right now is “I don’t know”. I don’t know anything I don’t even know what I feel I just keep switching between feelings. I don’t know what to do or how to deal with this.