u/Fast-Mongoose-4989

I'm always emotionally our mentally tired my life leaves a lot to be desired and everything seems to be working agents me. I'm poor I'm native and I'm white on top of being male so the level of seismic and racism is hade to deal with has not been fun add to to the fact I have schizophrenia its been one thing after another my thoughts have been a bit disorganized and my memory has been falling me which I don't mind to much because most of my memories suck because I hade a pretty poor child hood on top of being bullied and the emotionally mental and physical abuse all the way to adult hood on top of being poor my entire childhood and being poor as a teenager and adult and being autistic and now I'm on disability and my back is messed up oh and there's no work I can do do in my community so I'm unemployed and highly dependent on the charity of others. And everything is getting worse and worse on a daily basis that suicide is the only thing I can see clearly everything thing else looks dark grim and grimy and a bit fuzzy whether it be my past future our present.