Moving to NYC mid heartbreak
I just graduated college and was planning on moving to NYC in June. I’ve always loved NYC and had always pictured myself living there at one point in my life, I’m a theater actress and it’s not far from my home, so it always seemed natural. I was very excited because a woman I am in love with also lives in the city, and I was excited to connect with her again…even if it meant just being friends. We were close for awhile as well. However, something just happened in our relationship that just obliterated all of this, and I’m heartbroken. I always knew that this might not work out, but I always thought I’d have already found my way in the city by the time it did, and that there’d be someone else to redirect my attention to. Now, I’m just so sad. It has me rethinking this entire move to the city. How can I even enjoy it without thinking of her? For reference, I’m 22F and recently came out as bi. I haven’t fallen this hard for a woman before, and I’m just really sad right now. I love New York, I want to find my way there, but I’m just scared having this heartbreak going into it is just going to ruin everything for me.