I’m just so tired and have been dealing with various mental illnesses for so long and I’m over it. I like my life, I love my pets and I have good moments, but I’m sick of my brain and constantly fighting to feel okay. As soon as one thing starts to feel better something else gets worse again. The good isn’t feeling worth it anymore I just don’t care
Genuinely feel like I’m giving up and I don’t know what to do about it. I had a crisis and was in hospital after an attempt a few weeks ago and I’ve been feeling even worse since then. I don’t want to hurt my family and pets by leaving but I’m feeling very done. It’s always fucking something and I can’t do it anymore
I have so many treatment professionals in my life which I am so grateful for but right now it just feels like so much pressure and so many people I’m disappointing. And it feels like they are trying so hard to help me and I’m just starting to waste their time because I’m losing the motivation to help myself.