Antidepressants made me numb, doctor said to take more, thoughts?
As the title says. I recently started taking escitalopram (lexapro), just 5 mg, and even though it helped me with anxiety, it also made me feel very bland and empty. Now when I'm depressed I just rot at home, whereas previously I would feel pulled to get out of the spiral and force myself to work out or socialise.
My doctor says that's because I was previously driven by anxiety and once the meds started working, motivating anxiety is gone, but depression stayed and that's why I don't feel like pursuing anything anymore. That the proper dose (10mg) should help with depression and make me feel like doing things again.
I generally do agree with this statement, but I also fear that doubling the dose will make me feel even more 'robotic'. I am an artist and I'm often driven by negative emotions, they help me move through life and my work and get ideas about where i want to focus. i think they're necessary. think of it like someone took away your ability to taste bad flavours. you're automatically unable to enjoy good food because you can't even tell good from bad. everything is just fine or okay.
has anyone ever dealt with this? did doubling the dose help? thanks!