Help for strong intuition development
Hi this is my first post ever, I hope someone can help me.
❓ How Do You Know When a Feeling Is Intuition and Not Anxiety?
Recently im having a strong spiritual awakening. In the past I've been interested in spirituality, karma, UNIVERSO... But I was young Now all of a sudden I know this is all real, the energies the signs that the universe is giving me, it's all so strong.
I'm realizing that I have a VERY STRONG INTUITION (i don't know how to say it but I can really feel things) since i was a kid but i never paid attention to this "gift". I'll give you some practical examples:
-in the past years even though I was little, as soon as I met someone I could immediately recognize if there was something negative about them. And I was never wrong, even if months went by, my feeling proved to be right. ALWAYS IM NOT JOKING (but this could just be psychology right?)
-When my friend's husband was hiding something from her I had already felt it inside me, I didn't tell her anything, a week later she came to tell me that her husband had actually kept a secret from her.
- A few weeks ago, I had a feeling that I or one of my three friends was going to have an accident. I told myself, forget about these thoughts. A few days later, my friend had a car accident
-Another interesting one: I was 7 years old. I had an intuition hearing about a woman older than me in my little city. I felt she was a good person, with a good connection with me even though I'd never met her. They just said, "You know, her name is **** and she does this job." Years later, I met her son, and while he was talking to me about her, I still had wonderful positive feelings about her; it was as if I'd wanted to know her all my life. Years later, we became friends, and she's truly an extraordinary person, full of good vibes. My feelings about her turned out to be wonderfully true.
-when I hangout with my friends sometimes I have like a flash in my mind like "today i think i will see someone i know from the past" or for example I think that if i go to the Park i will see for example a white cat and every time I have this "flash" it's always right
-this one is about my bf: Before meeting him who is older than me I met his sister, and heard about him through her. I had a particular feeling of curiosity, fascination, it was strong, I was very young I was 9 years old but I still remember it.
Then time passes. I go to a school with kids older than me. I've never seen him before, but I'd heard about him. I don't know why this boy comes in, and immediately I have a strong feeling that I have to talk to him for some reason, that we need to be friends even though I don't know him. I find an excuse to strike up a conversation. Guess what? It was him. I was much younger than him so there was no malicious intent and I didn't even see him as a cute boy because he was older than me, I was just a child. There was just a strong and pure and authentic feeling that I had to know him because I knew deep down that he was important
Years go by. One day I decide to go to this place I hate. I don't know why, but that night I had a strong intuition that I had to go there. So I go there and see him again, we talk, I feel like I have to talk to him, we start hanging out and we get together.
When we get together I discover that for example every time I had the intention of going to a place, to a party or to do a certain thing and I didn't listen to my intuition, he was there too, or I went there and he arrived later, I mean in all the past years and in a repetitive way like not two or three times but many times (but that's another story)
-in general during the day I have a lot of these feelings, sensations...that 80% times turn to be true.
⚡ NOW MY PROBLEM IS:
I can't tell when it's truly my intuition speaking and when it's just mental noise, anxiety, hope, illusion, or negative thoughts. I've read online that intuition comes calmly and steadily through the physical and all these things... but I still can't figure out how to distinguish them.
ABOUT OUR STORY: We broke up, and they gave me an astrological reading, saying we have a karmic connection, which explains all those feelings I had.
They said it was destiny for us to meet, but since we hadn't overcome our karma and learned things, the universe forced us to separate. They also told me that this separation, as a karmic bond, was practically inevitable given the work we're doing on ourselves
However, I have the feeling that we'll get back together in a little while, or at least we'll meet again more maturely, and I also have the feeling that it won't happen anytime soon, but rather it will take some time. The problem is that right now I'm too sad, too noisy, and I can't tell if this is an intuition like all the others I usually have, or if it's the pain of loss that's making me think this way.
✨️ IN CONLUSION: I REALLY WANT TO LEARN HOW TO DEVELOP MY INTUITION IN GENERAL but I ALSO WANNA KNOW NOW IF THIS FEELING I HAVE ABOUT HIM IT'S AN INTUITION. How do you know the difference between real intuition and emltional mind?