ADHD and Puer Aeternus
What's the connection/overlap between Puer Aeternus and ADHD if there even is one?
It seems to overlap heavily and from now understanding what a Puer Aeternus is, I definitely think I am one myself.
I got diagnosed with ADHD at 30 (I'm 32 now) and I tried out medication for a few months but never followed through(too many side effects for me, and the beneficial effects seemed to disappear after a while), I half ass a lot of my choices, avoid work that seems difficult and I feel like I'm waiting too much on finding the right moment for something (obviously the right moment never comes).
It's not that I'm super unsuccessful or unfulfilled but I'm a typical daydreamer, thinking a lot about what my life could be if I just followed through and if I just did the things I know I have to do.
Right now I'm basically jobless, studying to become a software developer but it doesn't feel right and becomes increasingly difficult to pay attention because I already kind of lost interest (yet another half-assed choice).
For me it's always a cycle of pushing through for a few months at most and then losing interest and falling back into my old habits, addictions, procrastinating and feeling miserable about myself. By now I have been in this cycle for almost two decades and it has all repeated countless times.
I'm not necessarily blaming it solely on me having ADHD as there is countless people with ADHD that are super successful, disciplined and motivated but I of course cannot help myself thinking that because my brain is kind of fucked, keeping up the grind is much more difficult for me.
Where do you draw the line between what is ADHD and what is being a Puer Aeternus?